Thanks!

Thanks for all of your advice about when to POAS (pee on a stick) I still don't know what I will do. My hubby still thinks I should wait but he also knows me too well. We talked about it last night, and he said whatever my blog girls said would probably be a good idea! But some tell me to wait and some say go for it!! You guys are just like my brain!!!!!

Also thanks for the support. I am still very sad that we did not have any embryos to freeze, but I don't think it will really hit me until I get the pregnancy test back. If it is positive then YAY!!!! I won't have to worry about IVF until we want to conceive again. But if it is negative, well we know where that road leads - more needles, more heartache, and more waiting (that is if we can find a way to pay for it).

So for right now only positive thinking. My hubby says he really thinks this is it. I have to agree, I really think this might be it too. I have been feeling really tired / dizzy /queasy at times. I try not to interpret the "signs" too much though. I really don't want to get my hopes up too much.

Until then, I will continue to pray, continue to blow kisses to the pictures of my embryos that are on my fridge, and continue to read all your blogs for inspiration and support!

Zero Embryos to freeze but I still have Hope...

Well this weekend was another roller coaster. We found out that out of the about 12 embryos we had, none of them were good enough to freeze. They didn't make it to the blastocyst stage. Our embryologist said they stalled out (stopped dividing). I wish they could have frozen them anyways just in case but they wouldn't have survived the freezing and thawing process very well, so realistically they weren't viable.

So it all comes down to the two they were able to put in me. The transfer went extremely well according to my RE. Everything looked great. And it didn't hurt! I was shocked, Yay for Valium!!!!! So now we wait, and wait, and wait.

Feeling any symptoms yet? Well I am still really tired - no exhausted, but thankfully the bloating is gone; it seems my ovary has finally settled down. Also I have been feeling a little light headed at times and have been having breast tenderness. All of which could be attributed to my lovely meds! So I am trying not to read too much into it.

But here is my new dilemma. Lets say I wanted to cheat and do an at home pregnancy test before my blood work. When should I do it??? Please let me know the answer, I don't think I can wait until Thursday, but I also don't want to test too early and get myself all worked up over a possible false negative. My hubby says do it Thursday morning, but that is still so long away!!! I am thinking Wednesday morning or night. Ughh this is the hardest part!!! Girls, if you have done the at home tests please let me know how early you did them!!!!!!

p.s. Thank you to all my friends who have been reading!! I just got the greatest call from Brittney!! Also thanks for the email Cassie!!!!

Embryos are here!

Very Blurry yes I know but here they are!

Please embryos get comfy!! We love you already!

Transfer is tomorrow! - Fertility Prayer

I am excited and nervous at the same time!!!! My Mom forwarded me this prayer to say on our big day tomorrow:

"Dear God, We have so much love to give, and my spouse and I want to share our love with a baby. We ask that You and the angels help us conceive. Please send one of your brightest and happiest souls into our life, and let this being become our baby child. Thank You." (Add to or rewrite the message in the prayer to fit your specific circumstances; I.e. ...help us conceive through this in-vitro fertilization...) Also, can call upon Archangel Gabriel (pronounced GAB-ree-el) for assistance with conceiving

I give it to you all to use!!!!

Egg Retrieval Complete! Transfer is set!

Hi all sorry it has been so long but I have been the biggest couch potato this weekend!!!

Ok on Thursday we did the Retrieval. We got 15 eggs which is not too shabby for one hardworking ovary!! It wasn't so bad but still a little scary since it is a surgery. I woke up in pain so they gave me some pain meds and then we were able to go home were I was pampered by my hubby!

On Friday they called us and said that none of them had signs of fertilization (talk about a heart stopping moment!) and that they did "emergency ICSI on 7 of them) the remaining ones had signs of the polar bodies so they left them alone.

So one sleepless and tear-filled night later they called again and said 8 of them had fertilized!!!!! (UGHH Relief, pure relief!!!)

And today they called and said we would blast (take them to blastocyst stage) them all and do a day 5 transfer and (drum roll please) there are now 8 -12 embryos that look good. I wish they would have let me know that it is ok to have late bloomers!!! It would have saved me and DH alot of heartache. But now I am so excited that I am only looking ahead!!

So the F. E. T. is set for Wednesday Morning. I will do acupuncture before and after my transfer.

I can't say how much of a roller coaster ride this month has been. All of the highs and lows (and throw in lots of hormones and meds, and soreness!!!) let's just say it will all be worth it in the end.

Thank you all for your support!!!

Hoping I trigger tonight

Sorry I haven't posted in a while! I will hopefully trigger tonight for a ER of Thursday morning. But I might trigger Wednesday night instead, which is fine but that means that I need to buy more Follistim (or I might get luck - hey I am Irish and it is my day - and get another freebie!!) I have to go back later today to see.

My stats:
Number of ovaries: 1
Number of Follicles right now: 21!!!! (I am an over achiever!)
Number of yucky bruises: about 5 (from self injections and uncooperative veins)

I am so ready to trigger!!! So wish me luck please!!!

Go Ovary Go!

Ok, so I am typing to keep myself from falling alseep at my desk! Thank God I work for my Husband's family business! They have been really understanding with all the time I have had to take off (well they do want another grandkid(s) after all!)

I am so tired and dizzy/loopy from the high dose of Follistim I am on. But it is all worth it! I had another check up today amd the doc counted 13 follicles. He said and I quote, "Your one ovary is doing the work of two!"

Yay Lefty!!!

I am hoping that the Egg retrieval is soon so I don't have to buy more meds but the doc said I might have too. We'll know more this weekend. Whatever it takes we will do it!